i am the HANDGUN to HER HEAD...

jessica..

2005-04-01T10:04:53Z

is all i want and all i need to keep me sane and alive in this cruel world.

jessica is my first =

jessica is my one & only.

*one who calls me my my real name. one that ill cook for. that ill run to when im hurt. that ill stargaze with.*

and jessica is definitely =

the one that ill die for. hurt myself for. never say goodbye to. the one ill try to never hurt to.

and jessica is

myLAST..

woot.

2005-04-01T08:52:24Z

my brother. nyeknyek! hehehe.. *pacute*

inaalagaan ku lng xa ngaung araw na to.. un lng. ala ako nagawa dahil saknia.. hihih.

boring.<3 hehehe.

killmexromance @ 2005-03-30T18:51:00

2005-03-30T10:30:31Z

here i stand
forever in your doorstep
living with the promises
written on my heart.
i am yours,
surrendered wholly to you,
you set me in your heartbeat
calling me your own.
now i belong to you.

... am trapped.
i can no longer breathe...
but still, i don't wanna leave.

eto pa isa...

2005-03-30T10:27:14Z

STARS

If I am the moon, you are the stars.
Your soft light whispers to me through the ether
and comforts me.

The twinkle of merriment,
The blur of tears through an atmosphere of sadness,
The light of laughter and love shining in the firmament,
In eyes that I?ve never seen.

We are soul mates - The Moon and The Stars.
Together across time and distance.
Inseparable in our universe.
Timeless in each other?s rhythm.

I feel your embrace,
though your arms have never held me.
Your soft kisses, your hot kisses
brush me, crush me, with lips never touched.

Your tears course down your cheeks,
not yet to be gently brushed away.
Your laughter echoes in my heart
through ears, still deaf.

Your love fills me so that my heart swells
and words become meaningless.

You are a galaxy, shining brightly in my sky
Swirling, shimmering, distant, intimate.
And our light mingles.

mySTAR...

2005-03-29T07:25:09Z

Let’s go all the way, motion in the ocean tonight
Let’s go all the way, look up the star shines
All the way, motion in the ocean tonight
All the way.

Sail with me tonight
We really got to get away
The stars are for us tonight
The moonlight lights up your face,
Put on some Bob Marley on the player
You know he be playing our song

In my speed boat we be speeding
In my sail boat we be sailing
In my tug boat we be tugging
In my pump boat we be pumping.

Around the world
Across the waves
Look at the stars they shine for us tonight
My love burns for you tonight

=(

2005-03-28T07:34:56Z

ewan ko, d ko alam kung dapat ko bng ilagay to d2. nung isang araw pero gabi non, magkausap kmi ni jecka. nkalandline ako xa nka cp. tas puro kwentuhan lng. kung ano2 lng pinaguusapan namin, d naman ako nabo2red pag xa kausap ko. my binasa xang letter ng friend nia saknia. tas dun na. basag ako! amp. bigla ko naalala lahat ng mga pinagsasabing masama ng friends nia sakin. ang masakit pa ni2 tinago ko saknia, d ko pinaalam ung ginawa sakin ng mga kaibigan niang mabait! *___* ayokong malaman nia un baka kc mag-away pa cla ng mga kaibigan nia dahil sakin, kaya tiniis ko. kaso sa maling pagkakataon ko nailabas ung sama ng loob ko, at saknia pa!! naguluhan ako. parang lahat ng ngyayari mali. tas iyak, punas luha, iyak ulit tas singhot. pati xa umiyak. pero buti na lng naayos namin kahit na nag-away kami, ok na. yehey! hehehe.

jecka.. mahal na mahal kita.... <3

killmexromance @ 2005-03-28T15:25:00

2005-03-28T07:22:29Z

ilang araw na rin akong d dumalaw sa Lj ko. at nmiss ko xa. haha. parang tao. nami2ss. heks! dumaan ang cuaresma. as usual wala akong ginawa buong holy week, ni hindi ako nagsimba. amp. masama ang ugali ko. hehehe. evuhl. >.< nagstay lang ako sa bahay ng wed. tas tambay lang sa labas hnggang magsawa ako sa balot. yesh! balot. yan ang pinagkakaabalahan ko pag nsa labas ako. hihihi. kya eto, mukha na kong sisiw. hihihi. thursday dumating ang friend ko sa bahay, tas niya2 ko xa pumunta sa haus ng lola nia, kasi tatawagan ko c jecka. hahaha. angkaps ng mukha ko. hehehe. pewo ok naman. hehehe. bsta last week masayang malungkot. halo2, balot, shake, penoy, kwek2..ang nakikita ko sa labas ng bahay. ang view ng mga nagtitinda.. hihih.

naging masaya ang holy week ko dahil sayo PENOY! hahaha..

oh dba mukha akong masya jan. hihih

killmexromance @ 2005-03-23T15:56:00

2005-03-23T07:59:35Z

dahil sa masaya ako ngaun. wala lng. hehe. kanina katext ko baby ko. graduation nia pla ngaun. sa CAT. tas magkatext kmi, kaso nag-away nanaman kmi, dahil lng sa maliit na bagay. amp. ang panget! hahaha! wala pang tubig samin. nag-igib kami ng tta ko. amp. pagod, hagardness.. ayp. tas non nanood ako ng tv. wala talga magawa. huhuhu..

tas naligo ako. pagkaligo ko, pinicturan ko sarili ko, amp. mukha akong dugyot!

PRESENTING: half face amp.

stupid cliche..

2005-03-23T06:24:32Z

kahapon, dnelete ko na ang account ko sa friendster. nakakasawa na kasi eh! paulit-ulit na lng. at nakakatamad na. kaso nakakahinayang pero ala na ako magagawa dahil na nacancel ko na. hehehe.

nagalit sakin c jecka di ko man lang daw sinabi sa knia na idedelete ko ung account ko. ayan nagalit, nag-away pa kmi. hehe. pero oks lng. dahil nakipagbati din xa sakin. hehehe! away bata!

ipo2st ko d2 ang mga pictures na sana nilagay ko sa friendster dati kaso sa katamran ko, isa lng ang inupload ko. ayp.

pahapyaw to.

>ayan lang. hihihi. peash!

HELLO!

2005-03-23T06:06:32Z

close your eyes and give me a kiss..

life is sweeter with you...♥

i miss my star.. <3

piko?

2005-03-18T08:34:23Z

parang may kilala akong gnyan ah! hehehe. angkulet. ancute nito. :)

bagay kay ano... sshhh.. secret...

-buhay mo ay nasa box. amp.

-nalaglag, wala kasing sumalo. butas. basag. sabog. basag.

-hinarang, nasaktan. kawawa. di na ulit nakabangon. ayp

hello.iloveyouall.waorldpeacebow.notodrugs.

?

2005-03-18T06:45:01Z

boring ngayong araw na to. umuulan, may bagyo, walang tambay sa labas, paksyet d pa ako makalabas dahil ang lolo ko epal. amp.

kaasar. ttambay n nga lng, ayaw png payagan. pota parang mmtay ako pag lumabas ako ng bahay. syet yan. katamad. online lng buong araw.

wla katext, kausp, mapanood, mapakinggan.. kanina umaga pa lng. nagising ako ng 7:30 tas bumaba ako kumain ng agahan, tas akyat ulit natulog

heheheh! tamad ako. nagising ako ng 11:45 pinagalitan tas naligo ako nag online. gutom pa ako. hehehe.

miss ko na xa.. hahaha :)

my sassy girl

2005-03-16T07:36:45Z

MY SASSY GIRL

by Anthony Leong

"My Sassy Girl" is based on an on-line serial written
by Kim Ho-sik that detailed his relationship with his
off-the-wall college girlfriend. This was eventually
compiled into a best-selling book and caught the
attention of director Kwak Jae-young, who wrote the
script for the film. The story kicks off with college
student Kyun-woo (Korean pop singer Cha Tae-hyun, in
his feature film debut) crossing paths with a drunk
girl (Jun Ji-hyun of "Il Mare") on a late-night
subway. Just before she passes out, the girl looks at
Kyun-woo and calls him 'honey'. The other passengers,
assuming him to be the hapless girl's boyfriend,
demand that Kyun-woo look after her. After carrying
her on his back for what seems to be miles, Kyun-woo
drops the girl off at a motel. But instead of leaving
her and getting on his way, Kyun-woo finds himself
intrigued by the nameless girl and vows to do whatever
he can to heal her sorrow.

Unfortunately, he gets far more than he bargained as
he becomes wrapped around the finger of this strange
girl, whose dramatic mood swings are outmatched only
by her penchant for sociopathic behavior. When they
dine out and Kyung-woo orders anything but coffee, she
barks her mantra "Do you wanna die?" and then promptly
changes his order to coffee. When her feet begin
aching from walking, she forces Kyung-woo to switch
his comfortable running shoes for her high heels. And
being a budding screenwriter, she demands that
Kyung-woo read her wacky treatments, or else face an
ass kicking. However, despite these crazy antics (not
to mention landing in jail a few times), Kyun-woo
finds himself hopelessly hooked on this 'sassy girl'.
And though the girl seems to relish in humiliating and
belittling those around her, it becomes clear that
underneath the brash exterior is a wounded soul who
holds a genuine affection for Kyun-woo.

me & my new bestfriend..

2005-03-16T07:28:11Z

nag-shopping kmi ng bestfriend ko nung isang araw. hahaha. dala nia ung digitalcam nia. hbang nagfifit ng mga shirts todo pektyur xa.

wag nyo sana bgyan ng malixa ang pagiging close friends namin ni ericke.

*jun, migz, ayen, kam.. mga loko kayo walang tuksuhan. amp.

me & ericke

ericke *pacute

me. nyeks!

so ayan. un lng. bow. worldpeace.

+

2005-03-16T07:02:45Z

boring ngaun. wla magawa. hehehe. kagabi d ako nakatulog ng maayos. ang dami kong iniicp. kung anu-ano pumapasok sa utak ko.

saka creepy talaga. may narinig akong strange sounds galing sa kitchen eh lahat ng kasama ko sa bahay tulog na.

nwei, d talaga ako nakatulog. nagdiscman ako kinig2 ng senting music. ayp. ang pagkakamali ko lng bakit senti ang

cd ang pinakinggan ko, tngna, CRUSHED! naicp ko xa. naiyak ako. ewan ko kung bakit. ulul talaga ako. ayoko ng umiyak sa gabi dahil

di ako makahinga pagnatutulog ako, kc nakadapa ako kung matulog. ayaw ko na umiyak. syet. pagod na mga mata ko. [sic]

sabi sayo eh. ayoko ng umiyak ayan tuloy naubos ung tissue namin sa kwarto kagabi kakapunas at kakacngha ng sipon. neks!

lovestory ko.lol

2005-03-16T06:35:54Z

One astig summer day at likod ng kweba sa tralala you see the most freaky creature you have ever seen. Her name is jecka , and every move she makes just turns you on more and more. You nudge your best friend ericke and say, "Wow, that has to be the most kulit body I have ever seen." Suddenly, she looks in your direction and starts walking right towards you!!! she says, "I noticed you staring at me from over there. I just had to tell you, that I think you are so cute , and was wondering if you'd like to go to sa carinderia with me and read books ?" With a stupid smile on your face you say, " ayp. putang inang yan " and go with them. When you finally get to sa carinderia , she moves closer to you, and gives you the biggest kiss ever. The two of you are passionately kissing, when you feel a stinky socks hit you on the back of the head. You open your eyes to find out it's all a dream, but there is a note left next to your bed.

It reads: " jecka is the love you've been waiting your whole life for.

blog

2005-03-15T08:20:04Z

You Have Good Karma

In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others.

Your caring personality really shines through.

Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out.

But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.

How's Your Karma?

killmexromance @ 2005-03-15T16:11:00

2005-03-15T08:15:51Z

You Are Somewhat Honest

You do tend to tell the truth a lot

But you also stretch the truth on occasion

You figure a little lie isn't a big deal

As long as it doesn't hurt anyone too much!

How Honest Are You?

You Will Die at Age 58

58

Not bad, considering your super wild lifestyle

Want to live longer? Try losing a few bad habits.

What Age Will You Die?

Your Brain is 80.00% Male, 20.00% Female

Your brain leans male

You think with your heart, not your head

Sweet and considerate, you are a giver

But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

killmexromance @ 2005-03-15T16:07:00

2005-03-15T08:06:47Z

Your Penis Name is: Gummi Baby

Get your own Penis Name

It's Not Sex. It's ... :
The Wink Wink Nudge Nudge

Get your own Sex Name

Your Hippie Dude Name is: Electric

Get your own Hippie Dude Name

killmexromance @ 2005-03-15T16:05:00

2005-03-15T08:01:43Z

You Are Depressed

No doubt about it, you're feeling very down.

Maybe you've had a bad day, or maybe you need help.

Either way, make sure to take good care of yourself right now.

What Mood Are You In?

yak pupu!!!

2005-03-15T07:48:06Z

yak talaga to. pero cool xa. hehe. smayl naman jan! peas.

what did i do to you that made you do this to me?

2005-03-15T07:25:02Z

this is my life, inside your closet.

now that you're near.

everything feels different.

everything seems different.

i know im still the same.

my broken pieces,

u picked them up.

i saw you put all the pieces back again.

i thought you'd give it back to me.

you went on top of the highest building,

and drop my broken heart again.

are you here?

2005-03-15T07:05:50Z

i was soo stupid.

killmexromance @ 2005-03-15T14:55:00

2005-03-15T06:58:39Z

you left me in a place where you never wanted to be.

i wish i can see your face again. memories don't last forever.

everything seems different when you smile at me.

let's stab each others heart & if i live, you owe me another heart.

i am useless pala. i just learned how useless i am 3mins. ago while.. nevermind..

i think i am going to live a useless life from now on.

*shrugs..badtrip.. :o(

killmexromance @ 2005-03-15T14:37:00

2005-03-15T06:37:09Z

are you listening?

we write a thousand pages, they're torn and on the floor
headlights hammer the windows, we're locked behind these doors
and we are never leaving, this place is part of us
and all these scenes repeating are cold to the touch

my hands seem to deceive me
when I'm nervous or when I'm healthy.
the scenery's all drawn.

they hang here from the walls dear,
painting pictures, bleeding colors,
blanket the windows.

sometimes it gets so hard to breathe.
your eyes can see right through me.

these fights with your arms left beside.
one thing and one more says goodnight.
you've got the map come get to me.
these knuckles break before they bleed.

tear out these veins that own my heart.
this skin that wears your lasting marks.
i've built these walls come get to me, come get to me.

is this your lesson, a slight discretion,
the lines that keep you, the lines that sweep you.
lock the doors from the inside.

your face is so contagious, it wears announcements,
it leaves me breathless, i won't forget this,
i won't forget...

sometimes it gets so hard to breathe.
your eyes can see right through me.
let the walls have their say.

there's no conversation, words without remorse
and this television drowns the only source
wake from these dreams of you in my arms
to the staircase where you hold my heart
this place, these walls mean everything to me.